Perception is in the Eye of the Beholder

Perception is in the Eye of the Beholder

To those who assure perfection. I commend you. In my mind, we all have faults, and to those who bury them, hide them in an unforeseen part of your mind. You are not alone.

How do you think you are perceived? To those amongst my generation...A 20 something NYC financier, quick to tell you about his humble New England background, but also his trendy West Village habitat. One who loves the city, works the grind, but dreams of an secluded escape. Could I see myself here for 10 more years? Of course. Do I tell people this? I struggle to admit it. I feel conflicted with my inner self. Will I ever voluntarily leave this world of wall street for a lifestyle that I've always seen as "me"? 

At this point. No. I'll get squeezed out like every one else whose left, or continue on this path until my grind burns out.

The longer I live in New York, the more conflicted I become with what I want to accomplish. Time makes people change, and I see myself changing as the years pass by. Whether I like it or not, I'm writing this post as a realization that it's time for the perception of myself to align with reality.

I have my imperfections, but I overcome them with character. Everyone has their roadblocks, we all face adversity at some point in our lives and those who face them full-frontal will be the ones most satisfied with themselves. 

My realizations of adversity came in the face of denial. I've recently broke up with my girlfriend. I will always be alive with love for this girl. I've learned levels of expression that I've never witnessed. I've learned what it means to want to care for someone's well-being more than your own. I thank her for such an experience, but I am back here now; Dating: What a volatile, time consuming participation.

Dating has showed me a world of denial that I'm not accustomed to. Denied an opportunity for a proper introduction. A rolodex of selfies that has now become a resume. How much of one can you truly delve into? Denied an opportunity for a second chance. Denied because of a boring dinner. Ignored after one bad date. Then finally, once you've met someone who has potential, who gets your stomach turning, who has you thinking of what could be possible. They disappear. Dating has its peaks and troughs, but wow can it be a sack of shit.

Adversity in itself should be lessons of progress. Despite the awful feeling of adversity in present. It should educate so you avoid it in the future. Perfection in itself is a near impossibility, but when you finally perceive your life as approaching a perfect state. T

his is when you've overcome that roadblock, and for a limited time..You'll be grateful in your state of mind. 

Monday March 6th, 2017